This one fella.

Trying to find the strength and eagerness to update this page is somewhat taxing. And yet, one thing that's remained unchanged is my feelings for you. It has always been you whom I miss dearly and long to see more often. The more I tried to get to know another, the more I feel guilty towards you. 

I keep thinking of you regardless where I am, where I go. You're always with me, in my thoughts. The lesser we keep in touch, the more I realize that I've fallen deeper for you. The more hope I'm putting on you. How did I ever get into this mess, I don't know. I never knew it'd go THIS bad. 

Hey buddy, I just wish I could say it all out, of how I feel. I love you, I do.  I hope I will be able to see you very very soon. I always love you.

Though I wasn't prepared...

I knew that I wasn't but I still put a little hope in marriage, sharing lives together with the one whose God has stored and saved for me... I still want to have my own family, I want to have kids of my own and I want to love my family as much as I can in God's ways. 

I called off my wedding with my then fiance due to my unpreparedness, unreadiness to start a family YET, at that time. Perhaps, it's 'ME' factor or 'HIM' factor; I rather keep to myself on why did that didn't turn out the way it's supposed to be but I knew I wasn't 'there' yet at that time. Nonetheless, he's soon to be married and I wish him all the happiness in the world with his new beau.

P/S: I wish you and Florence a blessed eternal and joyful union, babe. Take care. :)

I don't really need...

I repeat, I don't really need a man to make me happy, as in, in a great state of happiness, when it's not the time yet.

I am fine on my own for now though it gets a little lonely at times , I'm ay okay. 

Wasted & Crazy.

Fun night with great companies! This was how I got to look like towards the end of the night...

Note: What you may see are just snippets of what happened throughout the Saturday night saga. You may speculate or assume whatever you wish to. At least I had fun! :))

* Yours truly with the goblet and the beautiful girlfriend next to me - Tetiana. ;)

*When I needed somebody... hahahah! (-_-!)

*Ehee...smoochie! Ain't my girlfriend a darling? :) 

Homesickness.

Our state crest - The Great Hornbill of Sarawak.

The Motto: 'Bersatu, Berusaha, Berbakti' means 'To unite, to labor, to serve'

P/S: I miss home. :')